Christmas Morning Diatribe



Are you a prophet then Son? No Lord I am not. Many today seem to think themselves so and are deceived in their own minds. I am what I am and if I ever could understand maybe then I could stand.

One thing I ask one thing I seek that I may dwell in your house oh Lord.

One thing you said and I know is true, no one can come into your house with anything from this world, no one can come in but as a child, and all who enter must come empty handed with no banners, no boasts and no belongings. Only what… a heart of thanksgiving for the salvation and new birth afforded of the cross of Christ, and the grace that is greater than all our sin.

For in the beginning God created, and when men sinned Christ was foreordained in the mind of the Father to come to preach the condemnation of all sin in the flesh, and to proclaim that eternal life in the new birth, the birth of the Spirit, through the blood of the lamb Jesus Christ the righteous.

Christ in you is the hope and the only hope of Glory.

Hubert Rondeau


2017 Christmas cheer?



Ho ho ho its Christmas and I’m invisible.

I wish I knew the number of people who feel this way every Christmas.

Up here in the great white north its snowy and cold right now. So when I get time off I don’t want to go outside and freeze my handicapped bum off unless I have to.

Question; if one doesn’t have a wheelchair, can he possibly be handicapped? If one in a wheelchair should laugh or smile a lot, does that mean he’s not handicapped and should just get up and go for a long walk?

Its been so long that I have struggled with my condition I think I’m normal. No I’m far from normal, although sometimes as blind as anyone around me.

If I had a wheelchair you still wouldn’t see me at Walmart unless I could walk, because I stay away as much as I can cause my handicap affects my entire body, mind, soul, and spirit. When I’m normal I’m suffering many of the symptoms people call invisible.

They are no more invisible than a bus! But they are fully invisible to the culture we live in which has been reared with no compassion care and mercy.


A new day


So here we are its 4:00 am  I’m wide awake and hurting again, actually I’ve been awake most of the night, trying to sleep as much as I could.  Is this Fibromyalgia, is it Something else?

I’m at a place where I’m not so sure of myself anymore not that I ever really was. So I’m up at 4 am, so I wish my life would change and that the pain and all the other aspects of this disease would just simply vanish.

I remember the Days of Old The Psalmist David cried, I meditate on all thy doings, I stretch out my hands to you. One thing I asked that will I seek that I may dwell in your house Oh Lord! All of my Days All of my life that I might see you Lord. Hear me O Lord hear me when I cry Lord do not Hide your face from me, you have been my strength you have been my shield and you will lift me up.  THIS  is my hope, this is my only hope from childhood I have had this disease, from childhood I have lived a roller coaster life of anguish, of intense anxiety, of guilt and shame of a mind not stable or grounded in love.

One thing I ask O Lord one thing I seek that I may dwell in your house… Not my house but your house, your house is wherever I might be at any time, your house is world wide and visibly invisible to men of this earthen world.  Your house can be entered by your children at any time day or night we need only to abandon the charms and trinkets weights and worries of this place wherein we dwell.

I will enter your gates with thanks giving in my heart I will enter your courts with praise. I will say this is the day that the Lord has made, and rejoice for you have made me glad.

there was a time in my life O Lord when I would write and you would come sit with me as I wrote, you instructed me as I  sought the keys to form the words my heart was searching to express. Lord, Paul said in Romans 10 that your gifting and callings are not taken away, that we have those gifts as gifts not earned and we have them for life.

My handicap and the turmoil anxiety and stresses of this life have made me fall face down in this gutterous world this modern mayhem of a society which is so jaded that performance and status seem to be all there is to life, and I cannot keep up.

I need the one thing that a man after your heart only needs ‘rest’ to rest my hope solely upon you and to have no other hope dream or desire whatsoever.

Lord I come to you today, with a simple prayer to pray, in everything I do let my life Oh Oh Lord praise you. Praise you praise you let my life praise you…

Open the eyes of my heart again forgive me of my sin and my wandering ways, My God you know they only added to the pain, the loneliness and the shame which I have already suffered. Restore unto me the Joy of thy salvation and renew a right Spirit within me.


Hubert ROndeau

Dec 20 2017

Just a quick update for now, but I’m hoping to begin blogging again within a few short days. its amazing how off track a person can get in this life, I had wondered why the Old testament writers so often confessed their sins to God, I had always thought them all to be perfect.


November 25 was a harvest day for me, this was the first moose tag I had drawn in 8-9 years.



My entire strategy was to pray to God for an opportunity to harvest a moose, I messed up twice and that was a long story in itself.

But on the 25th I confessed to God that I messed up and asked for one more chance. I believe He answered and as a result I did get my Moose. “Thank you Lord!”



Fibromyalgia… Yes I have it and its chronic in my case. I have just begun to seek disability as my life is getting much harder, and I am struggling more and more to work. My first dream was to serve the Lord when Fibro took me down the first time 15 years or so back. Now it seems like we are headed down the same road again but in much harsher ways, its almost terrifying on certain days. I pray Jesus, forgive me, and somehow please use my life whatever is left of it for your glory and purposes, I have found nothing better to live for than you on this earth. amen


Hubert Rondeau

In the beginning

In the beginning

Starting over:

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth,

In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him and without Him nothing was made that was made.

That which was from the beginning which we have heard, which we have seen  seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon which our hands have handled concerning the word of life — the life was manifested, and we have seen and bear witness, and declare to you that eternal life which was with the Father and was manifested to us.

“God is light and in Him there is no darkness at all.”

In the beginning God made man in His own image and likeness. Man was created of dust soil of the earth. God made man a spirit being on an earthen fleshly frame. Had they not sinned Adam and Eve would be alive today because without sin there would have been no death. When Paul says in Romans 6:23 the wages of sin is death, he is looking back to the sin of Adam and Eve.

They in the beginning fell from their high estate from walking with God to shrinking away from him in shame when he came to them because they ate of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. That fruit brought the knowledge, that knowledge brought death.

No longer were they eternal beings in a fleshly body, but now they were living souls who would die. Now they needed the salvation of God in Christ, who was in the beginning with God, who created all things that were made. They needed Him to become for them and us a life giving Spirit, to be born not of the seed of man, but of the Holy Spirit thus He being the only one… could come from birth as a man pass through death and resurrect to life eternal bringing all who believe through death to life in Him, that living soul who had become the life giving Spirit.

No religion, no cult, no rulers, no form or doctrine none

But Christ Only

The one true hope of everlasting life, who was in the beginning with God and was God, without whom nothing was made that was made.

Father hear my plea, forgive us all and save us in Jesus name, we have been so confused and deceived.


Hubert Rondeau

Loneliness sound


You ever catch yourself getting a coffee or making food at the kitchen counter and realize that you are listening behind you for a sound….? Like a loved one coming close to hug you or something?

I found myself doing that this morning again and it left an ache in the bottom of my stomach like a deep mourning, as I realized how alone I am in this world.

Then I heard the the Lords Spirit saying within my heart that this loneliness, this understanding was what he wanted me to realize. That in this place of seeming abandonment and nothingness…. He would bring fullness and comfort. For when we are at the bottom and there is nothing left, then He can come in like a flood with tenderness warmth and comfort with the love of GOD.

Then we are complete in Jesus Christ… Then He is our life our All in All.

When I was a child I used to listen behind me like this…I’d listen to be ready for an attack from behind, and I’d be ready to run. It seems to me that some people in my life saw me an easy open target for their evil!

My God have mercy on me I’m older now…. I need you more each day.


Hubert Rondeau