A lamentation


Another day dawning Lord,what will I see today? I see Psalms 19:8 The precepts of the Lord are right rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the Lord is Pure enlightening the eyes.148827_152174284827106_100001036074659_286405_7531315_n (2)

Lord I see that distraction and business can keep a man off track and away from you, without mention of suffering, pain and traumatic events. Can any man be saved Lord? Will you not shelter me? Look upon me, my frame and my heart have been plundered!

Still the enemy prowls on every side, he changes form so that I cannot discern Him until he has devoured some more. How long oh Lord? Will you not rescue me? Will you cast me off forever? Am I even I not made in your image and likeness?

I hunger for your courts, your presence! And Satan devours my life, and my days! I have looked into your precepts and your commandments were my secret treasure, so they were life to me. How can a lame man walk, and how can a dog become a man, and how can the blind guides who live lies lead the lambs into the pastures of Holiness? My mind is broken how shall it be healed? Surely I must be blind and like a dog who walks alone and barks in the shadows of the night!


2017 Christmas cheer?



Ho ho ho its Christmas and I’m invisible.

I wish I knew the number of people who feel this way every Christmas.

Up here in the great white north its snowy and cold right now. So when I get time off I don’t want to go outside and freeze my handicapped bum off unless I have to.

Question; if one doesn’t have a wheelchair, can he possibly be handicapped? If one in a wheelchair should laugh or smile a lot, does that mean he’s not handicapped and should just get up and go for a long walk?

Its been so long that I have struggled with my condition I think I’m normal. No I’m far from normal, although sometimes as blind as anyone around me.

If I had a wheelchair you still wouldn’t see me at Walmart unless I could walk, because I stay away as much as I can cause my handicap affects my entire body, mind, soul, and spirit. When I’m normal I’m suffering many of the symptoms people call invisible.

They are no more invisible than a bus! But they are fully invisible to the culture we live in which has been reared with no compassion care and mercy.


I can see it now

Write a word a song, a poem long no short and sweet. How can it be that you oh Lord should be the one who loves a man like me.

So oft I walk alone, I go so quiet so all alone, my life oh Lord you know – you know this way.

No form no comeliness, no glory or beauty lives in this earthly frame.

If these walls could speak I’d have someone to talk to then, but Lord I do have a friend in you my life my light my way.

Abiding in  you is all I really need you are the vine of life the only one I really need. No longer let me stray help me remember still each and every day that you are alive in me.

Abiding in the vine the way the truth the life, no enemy can come close my heart is hid in you. Abiding in the vine is all I want to be – so to be renewed Lord abide in me.

The only place I want to be is to be hidden with Christ in you – with Christ in me. I know I’ve lost my way stumbled in the dark, I know I’ve failed to see failed to stay at rest in thee, but I can see it now Lord please rescue me make me free to live again my life I give to thee.

Just hold my hand and walk with me lead me to the end – beginning once again, beginning once again Lord hold on tight to me I have no strength to be anywhere close to you unless you have drawn me….

Hold me close to thee…

Draw me close to thee.


Hubert Rondeau

M.E and me…

Hi Guys I just stumbled into this video today. This is Jennifer Brea.

I have been really messed up over the last few weeks, and seem to be getting a lot worse, as I often do when things get bad I look online for someone some thing to grasp hold of some form of HOPE!

As I listened to Jennifer I so related, to where she now finds herself. And where I feel I’m headed.

I thought she was talking about me. until she said the name of the disease. Then as I listened further, I knew this was me, M.E.

Yay! Right?  RIGHT?

Well this is me sad to say i’m not alone.

Please listen to Jennifer and look at your own heart and the ways in which you treat people like Jennifer and M.E.

She is such a blessed young woman.

Jesus Bless her entire life I pray amen.



The Word

The notes of the booklet, the steady hand of the writer.

The words of the one who says.

There is life in the word indeed the word is life.

In the beginning it was so and only ever so will be.

For the word was God and the word was with God, and all things that were made were made of Him and for Him “the word” in Him “the word” was life, and the life was the light of men.

In Him is the Spirit that spirit that is life.

The word.

Lo I have tasted of the word, “the word” of life it is!

I have tasted of the snares of men, of women long ago; they lie, they lie in wait for blood, that they might steal the precious, to defile to make one blind again blind and worthless.

An evil woman is snares and nets, an evil man and nations too.

Oh taste, and taste and taste again and see the word is good.

The word of life we speak – to keep you from this evil wanton woman Babylon and her kin.

The word I say is life, living active and sharper than any two edged sword.

The word that is and was and is too come, that living word the Son.

In Him was life and the life was the light of men.



Hubert Rondeau