Abandoned site ahead / Hope

Hi everyone; I just turned on my laptop and logged into my blog site for the first time in over two maybe three months. Wow sometimes life is HARD, and you lose interest in the very things you once received the most pleasure in. For me one of those things was writing. I guess I thought it was fruitless to write since I couldn’t better my life circumstances with my poetry and  general bad grammar, let alone spelling.

So life is harsh at times, and wishing and wanting and hoping don’t always seem to help. When you are carrying a heavy burden hoping with all your heart for a stream of water, a cup or a glass somewhere up the road will not place one there, it may be many  many years before you find one if you find on the way.

But as believers in the name of Jesus Christ, we must realize that we are not thinking in the same terms, and that our Hope is a real fountain of living water which never fails even when we suffer extreme conditions in this life because our hope is not on this life but on the everlasting life which is hidden in us in Christ Jesus.

A friend shared something on hope recently that was  quite revealing in a way, she spoke of a wine named hopes end, and how some brave sailors once voyaged to the dark side, to find a better life, how they arrived to find {hopes end}, in that moment they stopped hoping for a better tomorrow & and instead started living for the day.

Our hope is done when we live in Christ, because we have the fulfillment of life in him and no other desires to cause our hearts to want. “Christ in you the hope of glory” Colossians 1:27 kjv

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When I am out long range shooting, I never hope… I never hope to hit my targets no matter the size or distance. I go with what I know and its done, that’s the way of true Christianity its settled! Its done! the hope is not wishful thinking anymore the hope is life, eternal life. For if we are Christs and his Spirit is in us then we are hidden with Christ in God. Colossians 3:3 kjv,  so our hope is done… so now to live… For to live is Christ!

And what of those who deny us resent us or abandon us because of our life/hope well as Paul says in Romans “If God is for us who can be against us.” I would only add if God is for us “the whole world can be against us”, and what does that matter God is for us.

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Three shots at over 1/2 a km, the first hit to the left turning the target left the second hit the center dot, and the plate being turned on edge, the third time I aimed for the edge and hit the edge. No hope involved just getting on the gun and doing it.

When we are truly Christs hope is a given no longer an emotion or wish or a thought or plan,  but no matter what… it is life, and to live is Christ.

Oct 1 17

Hubert Rondeau

 

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Stand Again

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  So many years have come and gone So many battles lost… not won

How can it be that I so blind How can it be the end?

I heard your voice ! You said I would!

Nay said the lot Nay that I could!

Without your voice what can man hear

but wars and lusts, strife, lies, and fear!

Stand I strong?

Lord that I would!

Shut their mouths that I should hear your word… and Stand again!

 

Hubert Rondeau

And having done all to Stand… Stand

Ephesians 6:13 KJV

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole Armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

 

Establish My Heart By Your Word

I cry, “Lord i’m here”

My God don’t you see me?

I know you are near whenever I call

but my eyes sometimes deceive me.

By faith we believe what our eyes cannot see

if we saw how could it be faith?

Before life began

when the worlds Lord you framed

You said that to see we’d need faith.

Faith rests assured in a heart that is cured from

the wants lusts and lies of this world.

So while i’m still here Lord your word I would hear

establish my faith by your word.

AMEN

 

Hubert Rondeau

 

There must be a place

 

I stand here at the edge of the road

The cross road…

The edge is the ditch of shame

How can one so zealous for his saviour be in such a place as this…

There must have been a wrong turn a planting of some sort that didn’t grow

And I came alone so I am

I go on but to what point and cause

Go to the North

Will I find one there

Go to the South are there any there who care

What if

Were I to the east where all the harsh storms come

Oh maybe to the west to the setting of the sun

But if I here remain

How ever shall I find life and change

Was I not planted long ago

What uproot now and where to go

Seems a fools foul game unwittingly I played

But still look I and believe

There must be a place

 

 

There Must Be A Place

Hubert Rondeau

 

 

In the morning

I remember the days of old I meditate on all thy doings ….

I lift up my hands to You O Lord…

Psalm 143

1.Hear my prayer, O Lord, give ear to my supplications: in thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness.

And enter not into judgment with thy servant: for in thy sight shall no man living be justified.

For the enemy hath persecuted my soul; he hath smitten my life down to the ground; he hath made me to dwell in darkness, as those that have been long dead.

Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is desolate.

I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I muse on the work of thy hands.

I stretch forth my hands unto thee: my soul thirsteth after thee, as a thirsty land. Selah.

Hear me speedily, O Lord: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.

Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.

Deliver me, O Lord, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me.

10 Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.

11 Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name’s sake: for thy righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.

12 And of thy mercy cut off mine enemies, and destroy all them that afflict my soul: for I am thy Servant.

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John 15:16 King James Version

1Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.

Its May 21\17  I have been off work for a week and a bit, and I am giving thanks to God for this break,

I have struggled with Fibromyalgia for decades now, and it seems like my struggles may include CTE  a brain trauma disease which creates and causes many of the same symptoms which Fibromyalgia causes.

Last night as I sat here thinking some things through I kept having flash backs to my early 20’s when I was hurt in a logging accident, and lived with a concussion for months without anyone knowing, myself included. ( I thought I was insane, and demon possessed.) If you’d be able to see me then you’d be horrified, and slam the computer closed and never think about Hubert Rondeau again.

I had suffered a brain injury… everybody judged me and I fought the demon alone losing every time the battle began again. That wasn’t my first  MTBI  and there was nothing mild about it. Since I have never recovered, and have lived in isolation since.

Isolation because I just don’t function right… right like those of you who can have relationships because you have normal brain function and can relate to others with fluid like functionality. I have never had that. I have always been a loner, not by choice, no, but I have because I don’t fit in anywhere. We may be having a conversation and i’ll miss most of it, its like I am have mini seizures wherein like the spokes on a turning bicycle wheel  my mind or brain is going in and out in and out in and out again as fast as the spokes of the wheel pass by the forks, like the old movies where you saw the frame edges with each shot.

So I was here on my couch these memories coming and making sense of  the past 30 plus years of my life. And I am lonely, and feeling so deserted, I ask God for a place to go, and if I could find a place, a people to join, to be one with in fellowship and love, and when I ask there is a piercing pain in my heart as I realize that I’m not a favored  or desired one in this life.

No i’m weird! I am I know it.

So this morning I got up and felt a tug on m y heart to write but what to write? and I heard this word in my heart, “open your mouth and I will fill it.”

So I sat down with my Laptop and began this post.

If Jesus has Chosen me… He says he has, then loneliness must be my perfect fit, It must be that this is what he wants for my broken life, and maybe that only to keep me from more pain. What a painful thought for a man who so loved the body of Christ that he would do anything for anyone…

It still leaves me in awe and wonder, wondering if there are truly any Christ ones left at all.

 

 

 

 

Jesus Here I am.

You know, you know the wounds and the utter shame and pain in my life, sometimes I feel like I have more in common with the man “Legion” of Gennesaret

When Jesus healed him He wanted only to follow Him, Jesus responded go to your family and show them what God has done for you…   (not trying to quote verses here.)

Jesus you alone are my only hope

I will trust in you

I will have joy

I will glory in your holy name

 

Hubert

 

 

Hallelujah he reigns

BEAR WITH ME:

HE REIGNS

 

IF you made it through the first video,  “HE REIGNS” ; listen to Peter Furler as he shares his testimony as  a Preachers kid below , and may Y-H-W-H  break your heart with holiness and tenderness as a mother who cherishes her babies,

From the rising of the sun till its setting  the name of the Lord is to be praised!

 

Yeshua Jesus have mercy on those of us who have been so hardened  in this world and life that is so full of pain and shame, my God you alone are life……tears, tears, again so many tears!

God my God you are Holy!

Greater love has no man than that he lay down his life for his fiends

Yeah I know the word says friends but many of us are  his fiends more than friends  as we set out stumbling blocks for those who are entering in to the kingdom by faith and grace; we being  the lawyers the very ones Jesus rebuked saying, “lest your righteousness exceeds that of the lawyers the scribes and paraphrases , you shall not enter the kingdom of God.

Ephesians 2:8  By grace you are saved through faith!

 

EH?

Hubert Rondeau