Stand Again

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  So many years have come and gone So many battles lost… not won

How can it be that I so blind How can it be the end?

I heard your voice ! You said I would!

Nay said the lot Nay that I could!

Without your voice what can man hear

but wars and lusts, strife, lies, and fear!

Stand I strong?

Lord that I would!

Shut their mouths that I should hear your word… and Stand again!

 

Hubert Rondeau

And having done all to Stand… Stand

Ephesians 6:13 KJV

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole Armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

 

Establish My Heart By Your Word

I cry, “Lord i’m here”

My God don’t you see me?

I know you are near whenever I call

but my eyes sometimes deceive me.

By faith we believe what our eyes cannot see

if we saw how could it be faith?

Before life began

when the worlds Lord you framed

You said that to see we’d need faith.

Faith rests assured in a heart that is cured from

the wants lusts and lies of this world.

So while i’m still here Lord your word I would hear

establish my faith by your word.

AMEN

 

Hubert Rondeau

 

There must be a place

 

I stand here at the edge of the road

The cross road…

The edge is the ditch of shame

How can one so zealous for his saviour be in such a place as this…

There must have been a wrong turn a planting of some sort that didn’t grow

And I came alone so I am

I go on but to what point and cause

Go to the North

Will I find one there

Go to the South are there any there who care

What if

Were I to the east where all the harsh storms come

Oh maybe to the west to the setting of the sun

But if I here remain

How ever shall I find life and change

Was I not planted long ago

What uproot now and where to go

Seems a fools foul game unwittingly I played

But still look I and believe

There must be a place

 

 

There Must Be A Place

Hubert Rondeau

 

 

In the morning

I remember the days of old I meditate on all thy doings ….

I lift up my hands to You O Lord…

Psalm 143

1.Hear my prayer, O Lord, give ear to my supplications: in thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness.

And enter not into judgment with thy servant: for in thy sight shall no man living be justified.

For the enemy hath persecuted my soul; he hath smitten my life down to the ground; he hath made me to dwell in darkness, as those that have been long dead.

Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is desolate.

I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I muse on the work of thy hands.

I stretch forth my hands unto thee: my soul thirsteth after thee, as a thirsty land. Selah.

Hear me speedily, O Lord: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.

Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.

Deliver me, O Lord, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me.

10 Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.

11 Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name’s sake: for thy righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.

12 And of thy mercy cut off mine enemies, and destroy all them that afflict my soul: for I am thy Servant.

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John 15:16 King James Version

1Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.

Its May 21\17  I have been off work for a week and a bit, and I am giving thanks to God for this break,

I have struggled with Fibromyalgia for decades now, and it seems like my struggles may include CTE  a brain trauma disease which creates and causes many of the same symptoms which Fibromyalgia causes.

Last night as I sat here thinking some things through I kept having flash backs to my early 20’s when I was hurt in a logging accident, and lived with a concussion for months without anyone knowing, myself included. ( I thought I was insane, and demon possessed.) If you’d be able to see me then you’d be horrified, and slam the computer closed and never think about Hubert Rondeau again.

I had suffered a brain injury… everybody judged me and I fought the demon alone losing every time the battle began again. That wasn’t my first  MTBI  and there was nothing mild about it. Since I have never recovered, and have lived in isolation since.

Isolation because I just don’t function right… right like those of you who can have relationships because you have normal brain function and can relate to others with fluid like functionality. I have never had that. I have always been a loner, not by choice, no, but I have because I don’t fit in anywhere. We may be having a conversation and i’ll miss most of it, its like I am have mini seizures wherein like the spokes on a turning bicycle wheel  my mind or brain is going in and out in and out in and out again as fast as the spokes of the wheel pass by the forks, like the old movies where you saw the frame edges with each shot.

So I was here on my couch these memories coming and making sense of  the past 30 plus years of my life. And I am lonely, and feeling so deserted, I ask God for a place to go, and if I could find a place, a people to join, to be one with in fellowship and love, and when I ask there is a piercing pain in my heart as I realize that I’m not a favored  or desired one in this life.

No i’m weird! I am I know it.

So this morning I got up and felt a tug on m y heart to write but what to write? and I heard this word in my heart, “open your mouth and I will fill it.”

So I sat down with my Laptop and began this post.

If Jesus has Chosen me… He says he has, then loneliness must be my perfect fit, It must be that this is what he wants for my broken life, and maybe that only to keep me from more pain. What a painful thought for a man who so loved the body of Christ that he would do anything for anyone…

It still leaves me in awe and wonder, wondering if there are truly any Christ ones left at all.

 

 

 

 

Jesus Here I am.

You know, you know the wounds and the utter shame and pain in my life, sometimes I feel like I have more in common with the man “Legion” of Gennesaret

When Jesus healed him He wanted only to follow Him, Jesus responded go to your family and show them what God has done for you…   (not trying to quote verses here.)

Jesus you alone are my only hope

I will trust in you

I will have joy

I will glory in your holy name

 

Hubert

 

 

Hallelujah he reigns

BEAR WITH ME:

HE REIGNS

 

IF you made it through the first video,  “HE REIGNS” ; listen to Peter Furler as he shares his testimony as  a Preachers kid below , and may Y-H-W-H  break your heart with holiness and tenderness as a mother who cherishes her babies,

From the rising of the sun till its setting  the name of the Lord is to be praised!

 

Yeshua Jesus have mercy on those of us who have been so hardened  in this world and life that is so full of pain and shame, my God you alone are life……tears, tears, again so many tears!

God my God you are Holy!

Greater love has no man than that he lay down his life for his fiends

Yeah I know the word says friends but many of us are  his fiends more than friends  as we set out stumbling blocks for those who are entering in to the kingdom by faith and grace; we being  the lawyers the very ones Jesus rebuked saying, “lest your righteousness exceeds that of the lawyers the scribes and paraphrases , you shall not enter the kingdom of God.

Ephesians 2:8  By grace you are saved through faith!

 

EH?

Hubert Rondeau

 

 

 

How Shall It Be Seasoned

You are the Salt of the earth – The City on the Hill which cannot be hidden – Or are you?

I’m not a rigid minded person, I have always understood the line upon line precept upon precept aspect of learning Gods word, and I know that we learn by His Holy Spirit in us, and that He shows and gives light by pouring in His word, and stirring it up within our souls until the mixture of the word and the Spirit of God brings – life!

If you care to read on do so at your own risk, read quickly the mix and blend of Mathew 5 then go back and re read it, smile up at Jesus and say to him, Yes Lord!

When water is poured into a pitcher simultaneously with some other ingredient there is a mixing and a blending which happens all on its own due to that pouring; so read and be filled with the Spirit of the word and the water of the Spirit, and the life of the word of God.

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13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned?

11 “Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. 12 Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

14 “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house.

20 For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

17 “Do not think that I came to destroy the Law or the Prophets. I did not come to destroy but to fulfill. 18 For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled.

10 Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are the merciful,
    For they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the peacemakers,
    For they shall be called sons of God.

Blessed are the meek,
    For they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    For they shall be filled.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    For they shall be filled.

Blessed are those who mourn,

Blessed are the pure in heart,
    For they shall see God.

13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.

18 For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled.

But whoever does and teaches them, he shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. .

19 Whoever therefore breaks one of the least of these commandments, and teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven;

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20 For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    For they shall be filled.

13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned?

How shall it be seasoned?   With God nothing is impossible…

HR…It shall be seasoned through the mercy, the tenderness the loving-kindness, the Holiness, the purity, the tenderness, the grace of God, and the blood of Jesus Christ with the washing of the water of the word.

 Matthew chapter 5

And seeing the multitudes, He went up on a mountain, and when He was seated His disciples came to Him. Then He opened His mouth and taught them, saying:

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
    For they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
    For they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    For they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
    For they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
    For they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
    For they shall be called sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 “Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. 12 Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.

14 “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven 17 “Do not think that I came to destroy the Law or the Prophets. I did not come to destroy but to fulfill. 18 For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled. 19 Whoever therefore breaks one of the least of these commandments, and teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever does and teaches them, he shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. 20 For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

How shall it be seasoned?   With God nothing is impossible…

 HR…  It shall be seasoned through the mercy, the tenderness the loving-kindness, the Holiness, the purity, the tenderness, the grace of God, and the blood of Jesus Christ with the washing of the water of the word.

 

Prayer: Lord give us a heart to hear see and understand, let our hearts be broken up like the plowed  field ready to receive the seed and the rain…. Give us life  we pray in Jesus Christ name amen.

 

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